this is really only all we have _ daytime, twilight, pitch black, night light _ coldest eyes, and the softest touch _ (bury all of me before i have a chance to open my eyes and see you laughing) _ these typed letters _ (is this all we have? or is this all just twilight beyond the skyline blinding me?) _ fuck with these buttons and knobs long enough and maybe things will turn out fine _ hide behind your crystal screen and blow kisses at me _ just remember, what we said wouldn't happen... _ write your name on my chest in kerosene, spark a match and you won't be cold again _ this is really only all we have _ daytime, twilight, pitch black, night light _ coldest eyes _ you had the coldest eyes and the softest touch _ gag and destroy me _ sorry i didn't hear you, i was busy dying in the corner _ (i have a collection of thunder that i stole from your windowsill) _ those three words destroyed every inch of me and yet you keep speaking _ (stole right from your windowsill)
Act One, Scene One
About Me
"Young and Aspiring"

Cacoethes Scribendi
text

Music
the jamboree, home of the hits

 44caliber.net
previous website, 2021-2025

My Brand New fan page
currently in the process of reconstruction


Library
Man's Subliminal God
misanthropic philosophy

Life and Suicide of Mary Holiday
"What a Wonderful Time for a Mass-Murder Suicide"

Scorin' With Depressed Chicks
find and steal the depressed chick of your dreams

Contact
see me here.
touch and talk to me here.
hear me here ...and here.
comment... or die!
welcome to adelleda dot neocities dot org
The manic depressive's anti-social rainy day activity book

Since October 11, 2025

Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,
and the wisdom to know when to give up and end it all.

Last updated 10/16/25: about page made (work in progress).
please read: My website, 44caliber.net, was removed by neocities on August 27, 2025. I have contacted them multiple times since then and have recieved no response as of writing. It's partially archived at 44caliber.nekoweb.org but I hope to move the archive over to neocities

Sidebar links don't work for now because I haven't actually made those pages yet. Check back later!

I leave you with one last message: always choose love...